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Tonight was a girls' night at Artemis' place. Instead of being overnight, we only went until 9:30pm, since she was tired today. Didn't really matter to me. I'm borrowing Damnation from her, one of the best video games I've ever played, though I'm still loyal to Halo. Still, Damnation's great for playing with another person, and it's pretty easy once you get the hang of it. You can heal each other from a distance after a certain point, too, which makes game play fairly simple and efficient if you work together. It's fun.

But I'm not writing about video games right now.

I talked with Wolfe a lot about his problems. He's dealing with a lot of homophobia at home, which is hard for him, though the homophobia at school he can deal with. Not that he can't deal with the stuff at home, too, but it's just different. He got in a pretty serious tiff with his cousin. He's also going through some tough stuff with Aphrodite, and that's hard, too, since they're supposed to be best friends. Aphrodite's being possessive and jealous, like always, and Wolfe's feeling really smothered.

There's some other stuff going on with another friend... But I feel like that's really privet, so I won't mention it on the internet. When things settle in a couple months, maybe I'll post about it. It'd be pretty big, too.

Anywho, I'm really bored, and I'm running out of things to talk about...

The things that I love about Rain? Sure, I'll smother you with my love-y-dove-y crap.

He's such a dork and it's seriously amazing and entertaining. Because he's so silly, it makes me more comfortable, and more able to be myself, even if it annoys the Hell out of me sometimes. Still, he's awesome. And I don't mind that he games and such, because he takes time to explain the games to me. He's pretty in to them (discussions about Halo are interesting, but I do really like knowing more about the game history) and I like listening to him talk. I like the sound of his voice, ok? Sue me. Rain also slips into this Irish accent, which is cute and attractive and funny all at once. And he's so corny, sometimes in a dorky way. Dorky really isn't the best work, but we all know what I mean. Geeky, nerdy. Whatever. The other dorky things about him... He pulls the silliest faces and sometimes goes a little flamer, which makes me laugh. He makes me laugh a lot, which is good for the soul.

I keep zoning out thinking about him. Makes it hard to write down all the traits, because once I zone back in, I forget my train of thought.

I love him a lot. He looks out for me, he respects me, he listens to me... I probably drive him insane sometimes, I know I'd drive myself insane, but he's always patient. He doesn't mind that I spend time with my friends instead of him, which I find really important.

Jones is probably the most similar thing I've had to Rain. But Jones didn't let me have a life outside of my relationship with him. I had to be with him all the time, had to be talking to him all the time. Everything was about him. He kept trying to push me into sex and things. Despite enjoying being around him, I never truly had alone time with him, and I never had quality time to get to know him other than the first two hours (or maybe it was only one) I spent with him at the park behind the pool. Rain respects me and wants to get to know me and wants to be a part of my life... Just like I respect him and want to know him and want to be a part of his life. It's not just good, it's great, it's amazing. It's more than I could've ever asked for.

He makes me feel pretty and smart and shy and girly... But still me. He doesn't change me, just brings out the real me. I love it. I love him. And I love saying that.

I'll stop before you suffocate on how grossly corny I'm being. It's about as close as I get, anyway.

'Till next time.

P.S. Is it weird I like the sound of my name with his last name better than my own? California likes the sound of her boyfriend's last name better with hers, as well... I kinda agree. The signature looks better, too. But anywho... yeah, I'm weird.